My issues with Christianity

Having been a Born Again fundamental Pentecostal/Charismatic Christian for most of my life since the age of 10, I thoroughly embraced the Christian church teachings. These teachings were never questioned. We were taught that to question these teachings was inappropriate. It was a sign of unbelief, of rebellion.
To question the pastor or church leadership was a sign of rebellion and there was a verse quoted at you that the sin of rebellion was as the sin of witchcraft.

To question the validity of the Bible was a sign of doubt and unbelief. You could not stir trouble by spreading your own views and interpretations of scripture.
The church upheld the Nicene Creed: That God is a Holy Trinity of Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Jesus was the Son born of the Virgin Mary. The Bible was the total and complete Word of God, infallible and eternal. Whatever is written in the Bible is never to be challenged or questioned.
Such was what we were taught and such is what I followed.

In 2005 I found myself crying before God in prayer. After all I did, in service of God, the church etc, why are we not seeing the miracles we should be seeing? Why is the world not getting better, but seemingly getting worse? Jesus told us we would do even greater miracles than He did. For the first time I felt that all the teachings of the church and the Bible had gone stale. There was nothing new and nothing fresh. Every conference I attended was just mass-producing the same old stuff. It had now become unpalatable and I just became unable to swallow any more of it.

Then the small still voice began to guide me. I was accustomed to using the Bible to find my answers, such as a Divination tool. As a Christian I asked for answers, and the small still voice guided me to a portion of scripture where God spoke and said He would reveal to me the secrets hidden in darkness. I knew that the word “hidden” also meant “occult” in Latin.  I was not sure what to make of it, but I felt if God wanted to guide me into learning the Occult, I was up for it. I was ready for more.
And so my journey began. The year before God impressed heavily upon me that I needed to get New Wineskins. A few weeks later I was paging through pages on Amazon and found mention of the Tree of Life. I searched a few books on the theme of Occult and discovered that the Occult is rooted in the Tree of Life. I started reading up on the Tree of Life and discovered Jesus and all the Old Testament Prophets knew the Tree of Life extensively. I needed to know more.

The Old Testament Prophetic books are riddled with numerous references to the Tree of Life, but to discover these we would need to read the English translation together with a Hebrew Translation. The Old Testament just took on a whole new dimension. For the first time I understood what Jesus meant when He taught “Seek ye first the Kingdom of God”. The Tree of Life was a glyph containing 10 spheres, Each sphere represented a realm, a reality or dimension. Each sphere had an Archangel and Order of Angels and also an Astrological Planetary association. The Kingdom was the 10th sphere in the Tree of Life. It has always been. The Tree of Life also had 22 Paths depicted and connections between the spheres, associated with a letter of the Hebrew Alphabet. And so I saw that the Church kept people OUT of the Kingdom for centuries.

After many months of studying this I also discovered that the Tree of Life is a depiction of God in the Universe, the Macrocosm, as well as a depiction of the Soul. The Soul is a Divine Spark within each of us. The Soul is divine and eternal. The Soul is covered by layers of Ego, hidden from view or sight, but it is within. To connect with God we needed to go within, in meditation.

This is contrary to Christian teaching that God is out there, separate from His creation. I remember Bette Midler singing “From a distance God is watching us”. According to Christianity we are lost and poor sinners who need salvation, which is offered to us by accepting the death of Jesus on the cross as our ransom, the price for our sins.
The information of the Tree of Life was given to Abraham as Oral tradition by God, and later recorded in a book called the Sepher Yetzirah, which is also known as the Kabbalah. To fully understand the teachings of Jesus and the OT Prophets we would have to know the Kabbalah, and the church has gone to great lengths to keep the masses away from this information.

So vast is this cover up that I felt sick when I discovered it. The early church, before the Council of Nicea in 325AD, taught certain doctrines. We had the doctrine of Universal Salvation, whereby there are no lost souls, but all souls will one day be united with God. Hell is thus not an eternal experience for the damned. The ancient Mystery teaching which embraced the Kabbalah, taught the doctrine of Reincarnation, whereby the souls of the dead go to a place in the Astral plane which matches that souls current vibration. Some end up on the lower astral planes, which are the hells of the OT, and some end up on the Higher astral planes, which are various levels of heaven. The Astral planes are located on Yesod, the 9th sphere in the Tree of Life. The Book of Life, aka the Akashic records, are also found here.

The Bible also stated that Jesus would teach the masses in parables, but to the disciples He taught the Mysteries of the Kingdom. Mark and Luke were not in this inner circle, yet their gospels today are considered part of scripture. Paul too was not in this inner circle, and did not know the mysteries. Yet he designed his own theories, and was the creator of the doctrines of modern day Christianity. Paul invented the Gospel of Jesus Christ, whereby Jesus was born to die for our sins to save us.
Jesus never taught this. The Virgin Birth was also a fable, plagiarised directly from the tales of Krishna. Krishna had a virgin birth. When Jerome began the work of creating the Latin translation of the Bible (The Vulgate) he stated that people don’t believe in the Virgin Birth because they don’t read about it. So he mistranslated the verse in the Book of Isaiah in order to introduce this concept. Jerome also introduced the concept of Eternal Hell in the Vulgate. After the Vulgate became the Holy Roman Church Bible, all mentions of the Doctrine of Universal Salvation from the letters of the Early Church Fathers disappeared.
Clement of Alexandria was a disciple of John, and Origin was a disciple of Clement. Both taught the doctrine of Reincarnation. This was taught until the 5th century. The Emperor of the Roman Empire felt that this doctrine no longer served his political agenda. Emperor Justinian, in 543AD ordered the Pope,  Pope Vigilius, to condemn and destroy the teaching of Origin on reincarnation, The Pope refused and was thrown in jail. The Emperor then convoked a Council meeting.

There was a logical reason why the Emperor was opposed to the concept that all of mankind originally came from God and was returning to God via the cycle of birth and death. Justinian had been convinced by high ranking cardinals that it was not in the interest of the empire to allow Origen's writings to continue to be copied and distributed. A powerful group of Cardinal’s and Bishop’s explained that if every soul had once pre-existed with God, then Christ wasn’t anything special to have come from God. These Cardinals convinced the Emperor that if people realized they were the children of God they might begin to believe they no longer needed an Emperor, or to pay taxes, or to obey the Holy Church. But since they reasoned that only Christ had come from God but God made brand new souls at the time of conception and only the Holy Church could bring these souls to God. Without the protection of the Empire or the guidance of the church, all people would be doomed to be forever cut off from God in Hell. This doctrine was very acceptable to the Emperor. Once Justinian understood the political danger inherent in Origen’s teachings, the rest was simply an Emperor doing what was in his best interest.

The Pope refused to attend this Council, and the Emperor ordered the cardinals and bishops to abandon the doctrine of reincarnation. The council produced 14 new anathemas. The first one condemned the teachings of Origen on reincarnation, and so the concept of the pre-existence of souls became one of the lost doctrines of Christianity.

So how does this tie in with Christianity today? In 325AD a new Christianity was formulated under the supervision of Emperor Constantine. They uphold a set of doctrines, a new Book of scriptures called a Bible, a new Godhead called a Holy Trinity, and a new priesthood. The Mystery teachings were violently discarded and schools were shut down, and the libraries containing the most important books were burned down. The Christian leaders had to destroy all evidence of teachings contrary to these new concepts introduced at Nicea.

The Bible, more specifically the New Testament, continued to be modified to suit the Roman Emperor and the Pope’s agendas. People were forbidden to study, to read, and teach. This practice became a right exclusive to the clergy. The masses were plunged into the Dark Ages of ignorance. The Popes and priests enjoyed their idolatrous practices. While the priests and bishops and leadership issued decrees forbidding people to study the Mystery teachings, they themselves indulged in learning the Kabbalah, the Tarot Cards, and other Occult practices. Pope Alexander was regarded as the most evil pope, engaging in demonic evocation rituals, incestuous relationships and behaviour unfit for clergy. Some popes even wrote grimoires containing their spells and rituals.

My feelings are that anything born from the Councils of Nicea and later is to be discarded as Jezebellic. I chose to revert back to the teachings of Jesus, and this includes the Kabbalah, the Mystery School Traditions and lost doctrines.

Even though Martin Luther and other Church Reformers rose to challenge the Holy Roman Church and its doctrines, all church reformations that followed after 1517, still chose to uphold the Nicene Creed, its Books, and its Doctrines. I choose not to follow this movement any longer.

Nothing new under the sun

Ecc 1:2 Nothing makes sense! Everything is nonsense. I have seen it all-- nothing makes sense!

Ecc 1:3 What is there to show for all of our hard work here on this earth?

Ecc 1:4 People come, and people go, but still the world never changes.

Ecc 1:5 The sun comes up, the sun goes down; it hurries right back to where it started from.

Ecc 1:6 The wind blows south, the wind blows north; round and round it blows over and over again.

Ecc 1:7 All rivers empty into the sea, but it never spills over; one by one the rivers return to their source.

Ecc 1:8 All of life is far more boring than words could ever say. Our eyes and our ears are never satisfied with what we see and hear.

Ecc 1:9 Everything that happens has happened before; nothing is new, nothing under the sun.

I pondered this portion of the Bible for many many years. Surely we as humans were here to explore this world and experience all that this reality has to offer? We are here to learn lessons. We are here to discover our purpose, our true origins. What then did Solomon know that made him write this?

In modern day Christianity people are heavily conditioned by their belief systems that we are humans. We are taught we have a soul and a spirit. We live one life in which we can accept a gift of Salvation offered by Jesus who died on a cross for our sins. By accepting this gift we are given Eternal Life. We then go to Heaven after we die.

How do we know that this is true? We are taught never to question these belief systems. We cannot find out for ourselves whether there is any truth to this teaching.

I found out a few years ago that the teachings of Jesus and the teachings of the church differed vastly. Jesus studied and taught the Tree of Life, wherein we learn there are many dimensions or realms. We enter these realms through the kingdom, the physical plane. Each realm is a dimension which has an Archangel ruling over it, and an order of angels. We needed to learn how to gain access into these realms. The Tree of Life sacred Mystery teachings tell us we are Divine Souls. We are here in this dense plane to have a human experience. But now we are trapped.

God is the All that is who wanted to experience Himself/Herself. As God came down through the realms the One became the Many. God split himself up into a multitude of Souls, which are referred to as Divine Sparks. We all have this Divine Spark within us. But we are covered with layers and layers of Ego. When we passed from the formless realms of Binah, Chokmah, Chesed and Geburah into the realms of Form and Substance in Netzach, Hod and Yesod, we became trapped by our fascination for form. In the realm of Matter, here on earth we see the ultimate expression of form and substance at molecular level. We as Divine Souls come here to express ourselves in these dense molecular life forms of human bodies. When we die we simply transfer our consciousness back to the next higher plane, which is Yesod. This is also where the Astral Plane is. Yesod means Foundation. This is the realm that provides the foundation of all that is held in the form of matter on the dense realm of Malkuth.

We are all Divine Souls expressing ourselves in this dense realm. In the Astral realms we do not face the issues we face here in the dense realms. We have no sickness, we do not deal with death of a physical body. The suffering we experience here is limited to this realm. We seem to be satisfied with a carefree existence on the Astral Plane after we die. But by not moving back up on the realms of the Tree of life, and not returning to the realms of pure consciousness, we allow ourselves to remain trapped on the Astral Plane, and thus trapped in a cycle of reincarnation. We return to this world over and over again over vast periods of time where we experience suffering, pain and death. We are trapped in this cycle because of our addiction to and fascination with Form in these realms. And it becomes all meaningless, a chasing after the Wind.

I once knew someone who bought himself a new car every 2 years. I myself drive a good car, which I maintain properly. I intend driving this car for as long as I can. When I asked this person why he feels the need to buy a new car every 2 years, he simply said he got bored with the old car.

I also know of children who are like that. They are driven by an insatiable hunger for new experiences. Every time we enter a supermarket we see them standing at the Toy section. Recently we saw a little 4 year old boy in a Supermarket screaming and shouting because he wanted a new toy car. His mother tried her best to take the toy away from him. She told him that he had lots of cars like this already. He was not satisfied with the loads of toys he already had on his stockpile. New toys lose their new flavour and novelty within minutes and gets thrown on a pile of toys that became out of season. Such children are driven with a desire for something new, something satisfying, yet every experience in this realm they could possibly have will never satisfy them. Every new toy becomes meaningless quickly.

This is the realm which is the furthest away from the Source, the All that Is. We live our lives with an insatiable hunger for something new, something fresh and satisfying. We never find it. Our true purpose is to find our Divine Spark within, to experience our Divine Self, the God-Spark within, and return to the realms of existence which are without form and substance. And this is when I understood what Solomon meant. There is nothing new that can satisfy us under the sun. All the new toys, all the new cars, all the new places, friends and energies we can find in this realm will never satisfy that hunger. All our efforts to satisfy this craving for new toys, cars and experiences are meaningless, a chasing after the wind. It can only be satisfied when we become silent and begin to turn inward to our Divine Soul and experience the Divine Essence of God within. For this we need to leave the dense realms of form and substance.

The scientists have it all wrong when they talk about the evolution of the species of Homo Sapiens. Homo Sapiens is the molecular form we chose to experience this realm in. The only thing that is ever evolving is Consciousness. When we learn to exist as pure Energy and Consciousness without the need for Form and Physicality, we would have truly evolved. We will not have to suffer in the ways we do now.

So how do we do this? Is this then possible? The answer is YES. We are fully capable as Divine Souls to break free from the entrapment of Form and Substance. We can let go of our attachment to Matter, Form and substance and break free from the Karmic Cycles of reincarnation.

I am currently learning the practice of leaving my Body to explore the Astral Planes and beyond. This is a pretty straight forward skill which anyone can learn. This allows you to develop the ability to explore the Higher Realms/Heavens beyond our physical senses. Here we can go and see for ourselves what life is like after death. Many renowned authors on this subject, such as William Buhlman, has travelled there often and explained the techniques he uses to do this. Anyone who puts his Mind to it can achieve this in 3-5 weeks. If they can do it so can we. We don’t have to wait until we die to wonder where we go after death. We can choose to explore those realms now, and when we take responsibility for our own Spiritual Development, we can break free from the cycles of reincarnation and suffering.